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Eine Mutter erzählt vom Tod ihres Sohnes: "Die Sehnsucht bleibt"

Ein Sohn, der seine Dämonen nicht besiegen kann. Eine Mutter, die versucht, den Lauf der Dinge zu ändern. Und die Frage: Gibt es ein größeres Leid, als das zu verlieren, was man am meisten liebt?

Trauer hat viele Gesichter. Aber wie verarbeitet man den Verlust des eigenen Kindes?

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