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11.07.2021 - 17:56 Uhr
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Der verlorene Sohn: Warum Diogo sterben wollte

Vergangene Woche wäre sein 18. Geburtstag gewesen, doch Diogo nahm sich mit 16 Jahren das Leben. Seine Mutter erzählt, wie es ist, wenn das eigene Kind beschließt zu gehen.

Diogos Jacke hängt noch immer an der Tür. Seine Mutter kann sie nicht wegtun. Bild: Natascha Probst
Diogos Jacke hängt noch immer an der Tür. Seine Mutter kann sie nicht wegtun.

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