Tabu: Leben als Sternenkind-Mama

Jessica Zwickert ist 36 und Mama von zwei Kindern. Von Mika, der bald sechs wird, und Lasse, der als Stern auf einer Wolke sitzt. So stellt sich zumindest Mika seinen kleinen Bruder vor. Denn dieser kam vor drei Jahren tot zur Welt.

von Evi Wagner

Jessica Zwickert: "Keine Sternenkind-Mama sollte schweigen müssen, obwohl sie eigentlich reden möchte."

Bild: Evi Wagner / Grafik: Redaktion Magazine

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