Tabu: Sexualisierte Gewalt – Eine Stimme gegen Unrecht

Nora Kellner schweigt nicht. Vor Jahren wurde sie Opfer sexualisierter Gewalt. Eine Tat, die sie bis heute verändert. Angst. Panikattacken. Doch Nora kämpft sich nach der versuchten Vergewaltigung zurück in ein glückliches Leben.

von Julia Hammer

Nora Kellner wurde Opfer sexualisierter Gewalt und setzt sich nun für andere Frauen ein. Seither setzt sie sich für sich selbst und andere Betroffene ein.

Bild: privat / Redaktion Magazine

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